Did you know that the Cubic represention of color that computers use is inherently flawed?
Did you know that cucumbers are melons and that all fruits are vegetables, just like root, tubers, and leaves?
Did you know that a lot of things we take advantage of in our conscious experience can vary wildly like a lack of different types of bonding modes, the ability to and qualia of distinguishing senses, and the little tools like facial recognition and speech synthesis can malfunction?
It may be inherently flawed, but we can't just arbitrarily emit wavelengths of light with current technology. Realistically I doubt we ever could, we would need to alter the emission energies of materials on the fly, which would be akin to actual magic. It is frankly amazing it works as well as it does notwithstanding.
Then they briefly acknowledge you before returning to whatever uninteresting topic they were already discussing and tighten the circle so that you could not join in even if you wanted to...
You look around the room and everyone is in tight circles, making mostly small talk, with a few people in each circle dominating the conversations. At best, all you can do is stand outside a circle, essentially eavesdropping, but that's creepy.
So you just wander the room admiring the art and architecture, look out the windows, etc., before either finding a way to leave or finding a quiet corner and pulling out your phone.
It's pretty unfriendly not to leave an opening for others to wander in and join the conversation at a party. I've been standing around wondering why I'm there for sure though. Something to keep in mind as you're enthusiastically chatting yourself at some point in the future. 😆
Then they briefly acknowledge you before returning to whatever uninteresting topic they were already discussing
The fact that you call their topic uninteresting means you don't care about others but expect them to care about you. That is you being self centered. You expect others to listen to your interests without first listening to theirs.
That means taking a real interest in their topic even if it's something stupid like sports. If you don't know enough to contribute the conversation that means you are learning something new- which is a good thing.
And just because you listened to them doesn't mean they immediately owe you to listen to you.
2 hours later "... Which brings me to the importance of self-hosting, and that is..." and you go on for hours totally oblivious, the friend that usually gives you social cues is crying in the corner...
systems which do not merely operate, but have active agents ("operatives" if you will) that act in murder/plot intrigues in the background to keep the systems running. The less you know the better.
I don't do great with "normal" conversations. I actually love it when someone brings up some random ass special interest. This allows me to have a clear decision tree A. I know nothing about this, but it sounds interesting, here is an opportunity to learn. B. I know a little bit or maybe even more about this than this person, let's nerd out a bit C. This doesn't sound remotely interesting to me - I don't like talking all that much anyway, but this seals the deal, I'm Noping the hell out of this conversation asap.
So thank you to all you autistic conversationalists for smashing your cymbals!
also also, I used to do that too. It would be rude to interrupt, and they're probably not interested in what I have to say anyway, right? Fuckem. I've dealt with their bullshit for figuratively ever. Fuckem. They can deal with my bullshit for a change.
I will to you the power to subject your bullshit onto those assholes.
"So Amicus is a gay, alien, wolf guy and he kidnaps you to be his pet and show up his brother who also has a cool pet, but humans forgot that aliens exist so Amicus basically broke the Prime Directive for which the punishment is death, and they also don't have gas anymore to take you home so you have to pretend to be a dumbass while also helping Amicus become emperor so he can get gas from the Gods and send you home, but then you fall in love and don't want to go home but the Gods say you have to go back to Earth for 8 years to do some missionary work so Earth can join the Galaxias..."
The OP immediately made me think about Echo since I just played all the routes on your sorta-recommendation and I haven't stopped thinking about it ever since. I'm in the process of attempting to force my non-gay non-furry friends to play it so we can all live in the new upside-down world that it's created for me. I haven't done Arches yet, planning on it soon.
I just described Adastra, which was made by the same team :D
Definitely give Arches a try, too. It was really good. Actually haven't been disappointed by any of Project Echo's stuff, except for hitting the "to be continued" screen on all the unfinished ones.
Then go into it. For these two there's a lot of resources online, although if you want to go deeper into linguistics field, I guess you'd need to either go to university or find good resources elsewhere (books, etc. (Well, you probably can find these online as well)). It's just phonetics (in lingustics/) that might be hard to learn on your own, since you might make errors without proper instructions from an experienced person, or at least that's what I've heard.