I think I just attacked myself

also diagnosed ADHD starter park unfortunately

I used to maintain a zero unread mailbox. At some point I stopped. Email is just a public global todo list, than any one can write to. It's okay not to read them all.

You can always delete the mail without reading and keep your zero unread mailbox.
- well, I don't care anymore. I just unsubscribe and run sieve filters to get rid of junk mail. That's something I hate with a passion!
I get three seperate emails every single time I purchase something and pay digitally. It's unfeasible to keep a zero inbox.
The only reason my inbox stopped being 100% read as soon as I got an email was because 99% of the email became spam.

2nd time in a week that I identify in your posts… it’s frightening.

The potential thing has to be one of the most damaging things you can say to someone. Not many things instill quite as much self-doubt.

I'm nearly 24 and recently I realised that the fact I heard that sentence seemingly on loop my entire life is perhaps the most contributing factor in my self doubt and anxiety :) I hate it, I'm trying so hard to unlearn it
- I got almost a decade on you, I got diagnosed at the end of 2021, it's taken years of therapy to unlearn some of those behaviours. Seriously don't beat yourself up over it
Yep. Like "You could achieve so much if only you put in a little effort". 🗡️😵 Thanks for noticing how much effort I put in, I'll be sure to try again in the future.

fuck this hits hard. I need to get myself diagnosed

Serious question, could it get better with treatment? That's me, and I don't like it.

There are various medications, but you should visit a doctor to see what is the best way for you to go about it.
- Yes, I do plan that. I just can't get myself up to call. It's on my to do list :-|

Also applies to diagnosed peeps. I was very close to buying Sony headphones to replace a shit pair of skull candy headphones at 298 quid when I've only 306 quid in my bank account.

can't help you with the money or self control bit buttt

if you're looking for quality headphones I'd like to take a minute of your life to preach my favourite Audiotechnica m50x headphones, they come in both wired and bluetooth versions, less than half the price you said Sonys cost, and they're the best sounding headphones I've ever tried
- M50x are great cans for noise canceling. If you want open backs you can try Grado SR80x. They actually have BETTER audio quality than M50x, IME. The spatial sound is crazy. That said, they do not cancel room noise at all so if that's a deal breaker then go with the ATs.
- How is the ANC?

I feel personally attacked

EDIT: You gotta pump those email numbers up

I feel proud of myself, by mass deleting a bunch of repetitive shit from Amazon and the like I got mine down to 2k before I got bored and stopped because I don't care

You guys really gotta quit posting stuff like this that makes me question my entire life. The only thing that makes me think I don't have ADHD is the fact that more than one cup of coffee makes me sick. I might just be a mess, idk.

I'm unmedicated but I've been diagnosed since I was 6/7 so it's not like I don't have it. ADHD affects me more in the inattentive (I'm forgetful and easily distracted )type now so medication wouldn't be as effective for me like when I was a preteen who was more impulsive. I manage my forgetfulness with a fuck load of notes and calender reminders and to do lists. Anyway coffee used to make me tired when I was medicated. So reaction to coffee isn't indicative of anything.
idk man coffee makes me sleepy, and if I drink more than I can handle it makes me tired and anxious. The bean juice is just weird like that

I feel the the email goes both ways. I keep my email clean so I feel comfortable remembering and seeing only what's still important. It's a coping mechanism to deal with my default behavior, kinda like a checklist

I have my work email tidy, with rules for everything to move mails to correct folders, inbox only contains mails that are new and I'll need to read or action on.

Then my 7 private email accounts are total chaotic mess

Aside from coffee, I relate to all of the others. In fact, I lost a pair of headphones 1.5 weeks ago. There's also this:

Ooh, I feel more attacked by this one than usual. Fortunately my headphones have made it into the Master Checklist of things I am supposed to have on my person before leaving whatever location I find myself in.

And of course I’m a checklist creating machine, but that Master Checklist is the only one that I’ve committed to memory and actually use. I guess in that sense it’s a real checklist and not just another to-do list.

Also this:

6 hours of screen time? That's pretty low