This is kind of reminding me of addiction, it's the same pattern of either doing it to 100% or not at all, there's no moderation possible. Usually if you're predisposed to that you'll bring that pattern into everything in your life not just substances (but probably mainly substances).
First [Goldilocks] tasted the porridge of the Great Big Bear, and that was too hot for her. Next she tasted the porridge of the Middle-sized Bear, but that was too cold for her.
Oh you mean Daddy and Mummy bear, those particular bears were a hetero-normative family unit. Not that there's any problem with alternative lifestyles.
Same thing happened to me. Except now I'm old and have had no fun experiences in life because all I do is work and shitpost on Lemmy. Never been on a plane or gone on a vacation. Foreveralone single while my bank account keeps growing larger. Hell my will has my estate being donated to my local library because I don't even have friends anymore to leave it to.
Just go outside, it's the same wherever you are planning to go. People desperate for your fiat currency so they can purchase necessities for the future wage slaves they are raising.
I wouldn't even know where to begin. I'm terrified of crowds and enclosed spaces, so a plane is out. I've been spending a lot of time outdoors, though, and that has been nice.