Oh... Would have been my wedding anniversary today.... I feel ... Ok. Will always have residual anger-sadness that I wasn't a 'good enough woman' and melancholy that the whole thing left me very never wanting to do it again. But at peace. And as these things go it was amicable and as good as it could be.
Just because things don't work out with a person, doesn't mean that you're not "good enough." I'm glad you're far enough away from that past that you can look back on it as the past, if that makes sense.
I totally agree.
All the making people feel they aren't good enough, that's nothing but nastiness and control.
I still feel angry at my family of origin and ex.
I was engaged for a long time and feel the same on a particular day of the year. I was very much "not good enough", but over the years I've learned that sometimes people want things we simply cannot give them.
So true. And often on both sides. Thanks. Hugs.
so many hugs
Thanks mate.
Oh. Here's some chocolate 🍫 to add to your stash.
Hehee. That makes everything better
Big hugs from me too. Rough. :(
Thanks
That’s rough. I hope you can reframe the good enough part. That’s something I work on in a slightly different context, and it’s hard. hugs
Yeah. There's some water under the bridge now and we are mates and it's ok. Just jumps up when you least expect it. Hugs back
Happy Feaster to all! Jeez that Lindor ball chocolate stuff is rich as 🤰🏻I regret nothing! A BBQ will be had this Arvo which, if I time it right, will eliminate the need for cooking dinner.
In other news I'm trying to teach myself to crochet with YouTube videos and an ancient book. Great hobby to take up when my work is very hand related, bloody genius move 🤦🏻♀️ But behold, my first project!
It is actually wearable, which I'm actually shocked by, but even more shocking is both Minipeelers actually like it! The ancient book:
That is a most excellent book!
It reads like some indecipherable language but I'll get there!
That's very good work, the stitches are so even.
And it will be warmer than you expect. 😊👍
Oh thankyou!
Is it a condom?
An Irish one
Put in another 50 applications in yesterday.
Please Easter Bunny, just let me get an interview.
🐰🙏
Happy respawn day. Bless us all.
hail zombie
Yazzawozza
Driving back's going to be fun fun fun. Enjoy the good weather while you can.
Yep, over did it
Perfect
A local church minister popped into my work one day to wish me a happy Easter and I replied with "Merry Christmas Colin" in front of a room full of people that I was supervising.
Clothes washed and hung, burrito consumed, car washed, wiper fluid refilled, coffee & hot cross bun acquired. That's me for the day done. Guess I'll play some video games.
I want a burrito 😞
🌯
Pretty.
No Sleep team member checking in. I suspect the cause was an evening coffee, which is something I don’t normally do. Doesn’t matter, can have a sleep in
tomorrowtoday.NSTM here too 😎
For me it's because I may have not kept up on the upkeep and cleaning while I was sick, and the housemate would go postal if he saw how many dishes are in the sink
Chillos did good this year.
Gorgeous colours.
Hell yeah!
That's excellent.
Skippy Easter vs Greaster: which side of the family will have better food? Might make some pancakes this morning.
Greaster for sure!
Ortho-Easter? A while to go yet.
I'm so glad tomorrow is also a PH because I think I need a day off after seriously looking at cars online. Last time I bought a car was pre-covid.... 💸
It's looking like with my current options for 2nd jobs, neither one actually requires me to have a personal car even to commute to the worksite, so I'm thinking I should curtail my initial spend on the car, and keep the money for servicing later on (which, with less frequent use, would be padded out over a longer time I presume). Maybe an older car (10-15 years old) with higher kms (120-175k). But not an absolute shitbox either. There's a handful of promising options around the 9k mark (which used to get you a pretty decent car 😭)
So far I'm leaning towards a Mazda 3 in the 2007-2013 sort of range. Couple of Honda Civic hatchbacks that look promising too. While I try to figure out how to spend less I'm also reminding myself how much more bloody convenient it would be to have my own wheels again.
$9k is a good budget. I spent $6.5k on a shitbox station car, had to select from less than ideal options, went for the safer option in the end. (Side airbags)
Yeah, under the $7.5k mark the options start to look dicey. The savings would not be worth the headache for me. I'd also like the car to be good enough for my niece to practice in when she gets her Ls. (She or her dad can pay for a car with all the latest safety features later on if they want)
I've kept the 10k from selling my last car aside and untouched separate to other savings, so I do have breathing room in that range. But I definitely have had to sit down and be realistic about my expectations esp after 3 months of not working. Sure I was spoiled by driving a late model hybrid car for work, but if buying something that nice now means I have to work my arse off for the next 2 years, I'd much rather have the financial freedom.
Can I sleep for three days please
Went for a walk today to get some vitamin D.
Ran into some relatives I haven't seen in a while.
Next few days are gonna be filled with catch-ups, which is nice cause one of them is a chef and loves cooking 😁
I grew up reading these comics and now, finally, it's an animated series. The Furry Freak Brothers. It looks interesting. The cat is now female.
I made a video from my dashcam footage from my trip back from Albury today if anyone is into that sort of thing.
Albury to Docklands in 24 minutes (the video is still processing so the link won't work until 1:30am)
oh god, I feel car sick
Happy Easter 😊😊😊
Thank you for reminding me I have hot cross buns!
keeping mine for brekkie
Happy Easter to you!
I may have over done it with the eggs....
The Easter bunny is as bad as Santa. It's because we have to stash them and forget how much is already there, so we buy more!
Every time. 😂
My wife and I are trying an experiment this year - only get one thing for each other on the day, and then get something more on Monday/Tuesday marked down. I'll take a couple of days to get to it anyway.
I've still spent about $80 in chocolate, which is ludicrous when you think about it.
Nothing like accidentally falling asleep when it's still daytime and waking up 2.5 hours later when it's night to confuse the hell out of you.
Gonna get worse next week when daylight savings kicks in (or ends.... whatever)
Man with hole in hands has resigned. Something about returning to his followers. It does make sense that he is an influencer. Very popular among the staff.
Has anyone in history had a bigger impact on humanity than old mate JC?
You mean Johnny Cash?
Clint Eastwood?
I have been thinking William of Occam is possibly the most influential human in history
his influence in bringing freedom of thought created modern scientific industrial western civilisation and industrialised the whole planet ( edited to remove westernised the whole planet. )
😂
Muhammad springs to mind. Basically the head figure from any religion that got tied up with empire.
I mean....Mohammed? any of the religious figures? the people who "decoded" the Rosetta stone? whoever came up with the wheel? writing? Alexander Fleming? Babbage? many a4guments to be made
I have no plans for the rest of the day except more plant stuff and listening to some Terry Pratchett audiobooks (omg thanks for the rec about Spotify @gibsonisafluffybutt and @CEOofmyhouse56)
But now what should I have to go with the rest of my choc bunny as I fluff around the house?
Another coffee? Tea? Little white wine?
?
Happy Bunny Day, fam!
I’ve eaten so much crappy chocolate this week, I’d like to say that I can’t stomach anymore, but we all know that’s a fib.
Anyone been on the road yet? How’s the traffic?
Breakfast 🍏🍎🍐🍊🍋🍈🫐🍓🍇🍉🍌🍒🍑🥭🍍🥥🥦🥑🫛🍆🍅🥝🥬🥒🌽🥕🥐🍠🫚🥔🧅🥯🍞🥖🥨🧀🧇🥞🧈🍳🥚🥓🥩🍗🍖🫓🍕🍟🍔🌭🥙🧆🌮🌯🥗🍲🍜🍝🥘🍛🍣🍱🥟🦪🍥🍘🍚🍙🐠🍤🪼🦀🐙 🍗🥮🍢🍡🍧🍰🧁🥧🍦🍨🎂🍮🍭🍬🍫🥜🌰🍪🍿🍯🥛☕️🍵🍺🍶🥤🧋🧃🥂🍷🥃🍸🍹🧉🔋
Happy Eostre! Everything chocolate please. Not broccoli - chocolate broccoli is not a concept that I am willing to entertain for a moment.
🥚 🥓 🧀 🥬 🌯 Camping breakfast wrap ☕️
I brought a couple ingredients today, can you do anything with these? 🚰🐟
🍲
Happy Easter y’all
4 hours . Well into the Valkyries now. Brunhilde is the OG ride or die.
Apparently PTV emails about non urgent things at 1am on Easter now
Probably not in Australia. I had a message answered at stupid hours once also.
Apparently the call centres are located in Melbourne, or at least they were as of 2018. I just sort of assumed the email people would've been based there too
Back to reading depression book, it's a slow slog
today's rereading. Extreme reactions and intolerance of ambiguity. aka, making shit up in your head
The last part I understand very well. Now I fell myself to stop worrying about imaginary problems. Sometimes it works.
Thanks. I will tell myself that too. 😊
( The shit I make up in my head I would never believe if it was written down on paper, there I can see the leaps of logic, the assumptions, the biases . In my head because one thought follows another it's too easy to believe that my train of thought is a logical pattern. )
SOS ‼️‼️
I sat on those little Cadbury chocolate eggs by accident and it spilled onto the couch. now I looked online and I scraped the chocolate as much as I could from the couch. Then I made a mixture of dishwashing liquid and water and Ieft it on the couc to soak for a bit and it didn’t work so then I had this genius idea of using napisan vanish, and that has seemingly made the stain worse. I also put some corn flour (after looking at some articles online, and that's the white bit from the image, but I assume this will go away with time?) This is my housemate couch and she’s going to be really upset. How do I fix this? A lot of aggressive wiping may or may not have happened...
Also it doesn't look as bad as in the photo. My camera seems to have made it look so much worse...
ooh I'd say no to the aggressive wiping.
I'd consider a bit of baking soda in your water mix and test on a small part (if it's a fabric couch hard to tell) and let it dry dab off before the next step.. wet vacuum.
Are the covers removable? A full careful hand wash is going to get a more even result than any spot clean.
And be very careful of any of those enzyme sprays. If your sofa has any animal fibre (wool, silk) it will burn a hole in it.
Oh no! It’s hard to say from the photo, but is there now a light patch on it? It may have been bleached by the napisan. If this is the case it’s a lost cause. No way to put colour back into the couch, the solution would be cover with rug or cushion.
For future spills, buy an upholstery cleaner spray from the supermarket and use it exactly as per instructions. They are formulated to not damage the fabric. Source: have successfully cleaned many spills and pet accidents. Internet advice for various concoctions is risky, because it might be completely different effects for example depending on the brand of dish soap, type of fabric on the couch etc. Also some of it is just junk advice, people repeating things they have never actually tried themselves, just to get internet clicks or ‘I have heard it works’.
Agree about washing it (if it's removable). Otherwise buy the nicest bottle of whatever drink you can afford and offer to buy a nice throw rug and apologise. Shit happens. This is why I have a dark coloured sofa (that's washable!)
What's with all the blasphemous talk this morning? Respect to the guy who laid Cadbury choc eggs and hid them around the cave please.
How do we know if he hid ALL the eggs? Did he, mayhap, keep some for himself?
Possible. Perks of the job.
Confession: I totally did.
Blasphemy is a bizarre concept. As are most Gods. Why should I respect your theoretical arse for roaming around the countryside shagging everybody while disguised as wildlife?
Anyone Bayside/SE burbs smell that smoke in the air? I know it was forecast to be a foggy start to the day, but it has this weird aroma to it and our air purifier is going nuts.
Been hazy and smokey over here in the western suburbs for a few days. Today seems a bit worse though.
I use this tool to see the air pollution in real time. https://aqicn.org/here/
The closest one to me says that the from the 29th something suddenly polluted the air. Not sure what it is, but could be bushfires or a factory mishandling something.
The one in Sandringham says the air's worse for some reason. Currently at "unhealthy". Best to stay indoors.
the sandi and brighton ones can be misleading at times as they basically get caught in "pools"
Yes it smells industrial
They're doing controlled burns over Easter weekend. Lots of them.
It’s been awful in the hills. Generally it’s cleared by the afternoons but this afternoon it’s hit quite thick. Can’t see the hills at all
ayup, there be smokies
Mmmm chocolate
Swept the balcony, loaded dishwasher, bought Easter eggs on sale. #winning
Ooo yeah. Discount choccies. RIP my teeth. 😂
I tried to buy some on sale but even half price the small bag was less weight than a big block.
I was thinking of listening to the whole of The Ring Cycle today. Wagner. Again. Was going great until the singing started. That's only 4 minutes in 😐
I am one hour in, this is the music that created so many musical cliches.
It bothers me the singing is so loud, but then, it's a performance and the people in the back rows have to hear too.
Modern me likes performances to be naturalistic.
Is that a hammer and anvil? I can hear Sauron forging the One Ring. 😟
This hangover is killing meee 🤢💀
Slapped my face a bit this morning and sat down for a bit to look at cars again before a friend comes to pick me up for lunch.
Can someone who knows about cars explain why there's so many bloody SUVs in the sub-$15,000 category compared to hatchbacks and sedans? Why would they be priced so low when they generally have better comfort and features and space? They don't necessarily have that many more kms than comparable smaller cars. Do they cost more to service or something...
Complete gas guzzlers. Also nowhere near as safe as a regular car being top heavy and prone to rollovers. Basically a light truck with fancy seats. Expensive tyres, expensive servicing - they're a really expensive vehicle to own and maintain. Anyone trying to save money will ditch these suckers first. Their advantages are interior space and a very high viewpoint over the road. You pay through the nose for that luxury. Particularly in insurance due to their nasty habit of rolling over. Damfino why people get them when they have small children unless the good road view really matters to them.
Was going to get one myself, but in the end decided to stick with my ancient F250 for horse towing. Much more stable on the road and easier to retrofit lpg and power steering etc. And the roadview is just as good.Would that apply even to the older generation of SUVs I'm seeing? 2005-2015 era Outbacks and Foresters, some others like the Hyundai ix35 and the rare wagon (Subaru Liberty). They seem to have comparable mileage to sedans (8L/100km ish). I didn't realise they'd be that much more expensive to service, I figured they could handle more wear and tear than a smaller car but I guess it depends a lot on how the previous owner(s) drove it as well.
I guess there's a lot more demand for smaller cars too so they just get snapped up faster.
SUVs aren't as well made, have fewer passenger safety features
What's up with the Moon? Looks like a giant slice of an orange here in Sydney.
From Lygon st it's a big pizza pie .
When an eel bites your thigh,
And you bleed out and die,THAT'S A MORAY!
Early night I think. Cat brushing and reading then I'm done. Enjoy your evening everyone ❤️
Finally found a tv show that’s interesting enough to not need to entertain myself on my phone. 3 body problem on Netflix. Most shows are too predictable and boring.
Can’t wait for rain tomorrow, my garden is so dry. Water tank empty.
Curious to know what you think of it. I'd heard about it before it was adapted, as a breakthrough Chinese sci-fi novel that became popular in the West, but also that the source material was very dense and people wondered how it would work as a tv show.
I adored the books. Totally original sci-fi. Looking forward to watching it. I am prepared that the adaptation will have to be quite different
It's going to be a hot muggy day.
No chocolate for me yet. I picked up a stomach bug so it's the last thing I want right now
I'm up to Siegfried now. This part is wonderful. The Horn Call. 😊 🎺 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRyVaMiURxc
does JC’s blood come in alcohol-free version for the allergic or am I the fallen angel
Alternative bodily fluids are available
jesus sweat is a substitute for stock
Random YouTube feed clip - https://youtu.be/7TeFnhZ7gqU?si=B9ve94Oc6rrAiO6m - 1984 was a banger
Peak New Wave.
I'm up to this bit, the ride.
everyone knows this music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qx55EmiFadg&t=9514s
Nooo, it's the final scene of Siegfried, where Arwen thinks Siegfried is dead, and Aragorn thinks Brunhilde is dead. If it's a dream it's a good dream. They woke up. Not dead.
And they took the Ring. Those thieving demigods.
