This is what enables me to gaslight myself into thinking I must not be a proper neurodivergent, as I do not spend all my days playing (insert whateverthefuck it is today that is considered the most autistic), while simultaneously believing that Dwarf Fortress is and will probably forever be the best game ever made, and shaming myself for not being immediately capable of playing something like Aurora 4X without going through any tutorials.
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It's kinda sad, actually, how society has gaslighted me into thinking that because I was born at the time and the place I was, and because of the culture and socioeconomical ladder that my parents inhabited at the time, and because I was assigned to the gender that I was; and because of the certain traits I showed growing up - while at the same time completely disregarding every other trait - that there are only certain stereotypes that I feel I must fit into, even within neurodivergence, and if I don't fill those roles I myself will feel like a failure. I think most problems (labeled with varying diagnoses in the ICD-10, including but not limited to: paranoid schizophrenia, psychotic depression, borderline personality disorder, social anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, etc.) that have arisen in my life are because of these things that society has imposed on me, without ever even asking for my own preference and never taking me seriously when I tell of them. Psychiatry is a fucking joke like that, because no-one in that so-called "field of science" took me seriously regarding neurodivergence until like maybe two or three years ago, once my sister was diagnosed with ADHD. Instead they claimed that "it would have been noticed by now". Yeah you should know, you absolute fucking quack, you goddam charlatan. Keep selling me your fucking snake-oils that do fuck all, except make me unable to get an erection or cum, and only fuck my brain up with electric-feeling zaps if I miss a dose. You fucking fuckwit.
thankfully none of that matters haha lol let's go gaymerzzzzz
Dwarf fortress is one of those games I keep going back to. Aurora is similar but I can see how it'd be more opaque. DF premium means I've had to relearn years of muscle memory though.
Yeah, same here with DF. I love the fact that the premium exists and that they are as successful as they are on Steam, the only problem for me is that I'm too poor to buy it :D but I've tried it via alternative means now that adventure mode was released, something I've never even tried in the past. The whole experience was pretty much "I have no idea what I'm doing. 10/10 I love it."
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None. I never played a video game to "please others". I might have avoided the Sonic franchise around the peak of the whole CWC fiasco (if you don't know, then you're a happy man for not knowing it, don't google, bing, duckduckgo, or searng it!), but at worst I thought it wasn't me who had autism, but people around me were hyperfixated on "normalcy" and "causing harm to those who they're allowed to".
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Currently Destiny 2. Its had a chokehold on me since 2019 and despite all the crap it's been through I really don't think I can find another game like it.
Splatoon's a runner up but I just couldn't find myself loving 3 like I did 2
I mean, I actually think it's a relatively competent game, but it does have graphics straight out of the nineties and puzzle-y gameplay which neuro-boring people would probably call boring: [email protected]
And yeah, might be about 1/3 of my life since it's been my most-played game fairly consistently.
Final Fantasy XI. I have thousands of hours into it on a free private server and it never gets old. Everything about the game is just perfect to scratch the dopamine loop for me.
That’s great! If you have fun, everything should be fine :)
For me, it’s Eurotruck Simulator. I just drive around and have done this for over 3000 hours.
The Finals
The entire whatever-a-pix series.
I was obsessed with everything about this game. The gameplay/glitches, music, even the art style influenced my own. I even contacted the developpers to ask if they had the soundtrack because I wanted to listen to it on the bus.
