Same — I have a disabling illness which means I’m bedridden for life — so all I get to do is imagine what I would do if I were abled, instead of actually doing it.
Nootropics FTW. They temporarily shut down all three, allowing you to actually get shit done during a brief 6-8 hour window. I drank, smoked weed, and took Kratom for years to numb the depression (but increase the anxiety and lack of motivation) until I learned about suppliments like Bacopa Monnieri and N-acetylcysteine (NAC).