My daughter's back from her camping trip. 16 adults, kids and 4 dogs attended. She's recounting her adventures.
Her: Oh and we played trivia
Me: Did you win?
Her: Yeah
Me: Did you whip their arses?
Her: Yeah. And one of the blokes was an ologist of some sort.
Me: Did you whip his arse?
Her: laughs Yeah
Me: That's my girl.
Years of paying her to be an impromptu quiz master has paid off.
I close my eyes and all I see is you,
A silhouette of all my nightmares coming true.
You throw your weight around on me,
Getting off on all the ways I'm suffocating.
So I sink into the bed and out of my mind,
As my heart skips the beat and falls out of time.
Does your girlfriend know about your three am DM to me?
Five years out from the fallout of your fuck around and find out?
She approve of you blaming me for the pain you caused me?
Does she know what you've done or have you spun her a new story;
A narrative that paints you plaintive in the face of great adversity,
With me standing in as the villain in your rewritten history?
I'll tear you apart from head to heart to watch you bleed,
Get on your knees and let me hear you beg and plead,
Reenact that scene, reenact that scene for me:
The one where I was begging you to set me free.
I want to see what you saw when you carved me into your pawn,
But revenge is a dish that's best served cold and raw,
Do it again and I'll bring you pain you've never felt before,
Like when you choked me out with your father's belt on the hardwood floor.
I close my eyes and all I see is you,
Standing over me, my nightmares coming true.
You throw your weight around on me,
Getting off on all the ways I'm suffocating.
So I sink into the bed and out of my mind,
As my heart skips the beat and I fall out of time.
Things my former cat liked to sit on - clean laundry, dirty laundry, laptop bag, laptop keyboard, shopping bag on the floor, open suitcase, recently vacated-by-human spot on couch, a cardboard box
Things she didn’t like to sit on - fancy cat tree, any cushion or blanket put down for her to sit on
I’d love it if manufacturers would stop reformulating everything.
A lot of the “new and improved” stuff is actually worse, sometimes even causing bad reactions for me. Often not only me. Whenever it happens I stop buying.
Thank you so much for this warning. I have a tendency to rosacea and if I am not careful I get rosacea in my eyes, which can lead to corneal scarring. Cetaphil was a go to. Now I'm going to check all my cupboards for any I might still have and warn young Miss Seagoon too.
A good alternative is clearasil wash, get the one without much salicylic acid.
I’m not exactly sure when the formulation changed (to be able to check by bottle date) but I burned my face with Cetaphil at least a year ago. Complaining again because I’m revisiting my options.
I went to Neutrogena extra gentle cleanser but that’s now been changed into some foaming and creamy cleansers that I haven’t yet tried out.
Not entirely sure about the Clearasil. I still have combination skin but as I’m getting older it’s getting weirdly dehydrated so I’m trying to steer away from anything foaming to see if that helps.
Agree, I’m not able to use salicylic acid every day. If I use it it’s only once in a blue moon (because physical exfoliation is too rough) and as a drop or two of serum mixed into lotion to dilute it. (I’ll keep one bottle of a cheap brand like Beauty Glam or Kmart on hand - also good for rubbing under arms before antiperspirant.)
Other things I tried if it’s useful to anybody:
Cerave cleanser and lotion are good on my skin but you can’t buy them with your regular supermarket shop and while the lotion is lovely and hydrating it’s quite light and doesn’t have a lot of staying power so you can still get dry. Still the best known options.
The tube of Cerave cream isn’t very moisturising, feels more like a really thick barrier cream that sits as a residue on your skin.
Reviews say the same about the Cerave tubs which also contain niacinimide (can cause redness and soreness or breakouts) so I give the tubs a miss.
Ego Sunsense Daily Face SPF 50 varieties have also changed to include niacinimide so I stopped buying it. That had been a little oily/shiny but was the only high protection facial sunscreen I found that didn’t sting…
I used the Nivea SPF 15 moisturiser for many years as a teen and young adult but that recently began stinging after reformulation and then got discontinued. In hindsight I wish I had used something with higher protection.
I tend to dislike QV products in general with one exception. The foaming unscented QV wash is ok for body but stripping on face. I might use it in the shower if trying to remove sunscreen but for regular use, no.
EDIT: Also sorbolene stings and reddens my skin. This may be due to the glycerine, or the surfactant/detergent in it (as sorbolene was made to be a soap free skin cleanser). Some people may get away with using it to cleanse or remove makeup and then washing it right off but it always causes a red sore reaction for me regardless.
Current routine: After finishing the cleanser bottle I kind of cracked the shits about the price of Cerave face wash and having to go out of my way to buy it so have just been rinsing my face with water or a quick rub with very diluted Balnea sorbolene ‘soap’ in the shower… not helping the dryness but oh well. I am temporarily being broke and lazy.
I tried the Dove sensitive beauty bar on my face at the sink but it’s unexpectedly drying and can sting if I’m not careful.
I’m still using the Cerave lotion but having to top it off with an unscented body lotion to seal the hydration in (Vaseline brand) because it’s so very light.
For sunscreen I was using Olay SPF 30 Sensitive which was tolerable and not greasy but could be a bit stinging and thick to wash off.
Now I use Neutrogena SPF 15 moisturiser which is fine but nowhere near the level of sun protection I want. I keep the little pump bottle of Olay in my bag as a backup.
Had a nap from 3 to 8. But I'm still dissociating. A strange sense of doom looms over my head and has infiltrated my heart and my guts, I feel strange pangs in both.
Perhaps I'm just unwell, but when am I ever not unwell?
The exhaustion is hitting me haaaard again, slept til 11am, then had a slow breakfast, followed by going to three shops for groceries... then just sat in my car and snoozed for another hour. That's bad, I normally chill in my car on my phone but have never actually slept in it.
Still haven't done my readings either... But I made food?
Tonight it's khichuri (the lentil-and-rice origin of kedgeree without fish in it) in the rice cooker, with mung dal as the lentil, and my first attempt at vegetable korma (thickened with coconut milk and cashews blended). Wish I remembered to buy frozen peas to really add to it.
not particularly aesthetic pikturz
Not a bad dinner if I say so myself esp with some super intense lime pickle to cut through ot all. Gonna freeze some of the excess korma for a nice dinner later on.
After visiting my aunt I feel inspired to get an Instant Pot to make this dish (and many others) more quickly...
I bought an instant pot for myself for Christmas and it's fantastic. I cook a lot of lentils, it's great for rice,.I make yoghurt in it. The best bit is that you can pop everything in and forget about it until it tells you it's done. One less thing to watch when my energy is low.
For real, lentils and beans are a big part of my diet - being able to pressure cook without faffing around on the stove or worrying about things exploding is tempting (finally I can have a crack at making dal makhani). And as you say, SET AND FORGET - huge reason why I use a rice cooker. Being able to do pilafs and the like in the instant pot is very tempting...
Also potentially in the reformulation hall of shame - Ensure powder. I’d been drinking it in recent years to help maintain nutrition, but then it got taken off shelves and brought back with new labels…
TW medical, vomiting
In developments that may or may not be connected, I started needing to dilute the Ensure much more to stomach it and eventually completely stopped having it because it was making me really sick, much more than my normal baseline.
My stomach still shuts down (gastroparesis but possibly something else too - tests are still pending) and I’m still in a lot of pain but since I quit drinking the Ensure I’m no longer routinely vomiting.
It was always a little gross to drink and I can’t find anything about a reformulation? Nothing is jumping out at me as different on the label.
But more recently it’s unambiguously been worsening things for me and I’m trying to remember if that started around the time of the new packaging.
I really feel like companies should be required to announce changes and disclose what they were.
Did a big stuff up today, am upset due to it. Have some critical things in the next couple of weeks that will be emotionally challenging. Why is stress hard. Wish I was tougher.
How could a human being blanketly hate burritos when there are so many different types? What about a breakfast burrito? What about a chicken burrito with lettuce? Or do you just hate tortillas?
Looking at the movies on the Internet Archive and some of them look ok. Selection isn’t as bad as I thought.
Some of them are a no thanks for me but there seem to be a few cult movies on there
Edit: There are still a few rare ones (Sympathy For Mr Vengeance, Lone Wolf And Cub) and Beetlejuice. But a lot of the entries for the ones I wanted to check out first (classic slashers) mostly consist of crud like podcasts discussing them, soundtracks, trailers, art etc. Angery.
Still not succumbing to the subscription streaming bullshit though. I just want to go back to the days of Blockbuster, where I could rent 5 weekly videos for $10 and heat up a frozen pizza to eat while I watch…
TV Review. Dostoyevsky , Series on Amazon. Made in Russia.
Not sure if I have reviewed this before but I just watched the last half of the series.
It is near unrelenting in evoking negative emotion and viewpoints. And it is true terrible things happened , bad in ways that ordinary people can not imagine.
It seems all the human suffering shown is contrasted with the beauty of the cities, the country and the people. That's just Russian art.
They didn't show the source of all the guilt that Fyodor experienced and wrote about . Could be ptsd and survivor guilt. Religion invoked guilt. Feeling like a failure because he didn't want a normal job but was driven to be a writer, a literate person could do well at being a clerk in that time
maybe we had to surmise it all . Over all I found the series very unsettling.
I think many sets/shots are reproductions on screen of famous paintings like these https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peredvizhniki and of course the most famous painting is reproduced too