🌞 Months ago I started working really hard at disarming the trigger of hearing the accent/dialect of my father. 50 uurs later of watching dutch and flemish tv I can listen to what ever I want without any neg feelings ( mortal dread ) arising.
So now I have started watching the movie philosophy of art channel I really wanted to and it's goed.
It's so hard to disarm the ghosts in our heads but it's worth it. 🌞 I could have just thought to myself; I don't like this movie channel, I don't like this guy; that would have been easy. But I knew that was rubbish, I did like it and he was a smart nice guy worth listening to , so I made the effort. I also didn't want my father to succeed. How dare he mess me up like that. It's my life. :)
( I also watched all the movies talked about, most I had already seen ) so I at least had a reference point. 👍
That's no mean feat. I'm glad you could get past that particular ghost. Hugs
Thanks. It feels so good not to be triggered by that anymore. :)
Well done! Any tips on what worked well?
keep my focus on the end goal, for me it was watching the movie channel. It is important to me.
try to immerse myself in other aspects of the situation than what triggers me
in this case the trigger was the accent and dialect, so while still hearing in the background I concentrated on the story and the visuals
slowly increase my attention to the trigger, I suppose you could call it desensitisation
in the past while overcoming triggers I would allow myself to literally run or stop an activity, but only ONCE, that was the deal I made with myself, thereafter I had to be brave and face my trigger
That’s an awesome achievement, and well done you on conquering those ghosts
Behold the prawn gyoza of doom
Smoke 'em if you gottem
Tm will be interesting.
Chapter 498 of the weird things the kids do nowadays that I just can't conceive of doing back when I was their age. Bunch of kids on the tram kicking heads of broccoli around. At least 3 of them (broccoli heads that is, kids were more like a dozen or so). And marking them when they went airborne. BrocSoccer? Brocfooty? This seems perverted to me.
I can come at wine cask liner football (have played that myself back when I was flexible), but random violence to vegetables is a new one to me. Shakes fist at clouds.Food is cheap.
when I was growing food was expensive, you didn't waste it or play with it
Idk. I bet you could find a soccer ball cheaper than a head of broccoli at woolies
Me too. As I have a vegie patch, and when you've nurtured something through to edible status for months, then this sort of thing just revolts me.
Bunch of kids on the tram kicking heads of broccoli around.
A bit like our fluffy cat.
Demands for brocolli. Proceeds to protect it with his life, hissing at anyone who comes near it, and kicking it around for a bit, then abandons it after 15 minutes.
Already half way home on the tram *dusts hands* what a day
<plays Dolly Parton's 9 to 5>
Want to move ahead But the boss won't seem to let me I swear sometimes that man is Out to get me
What a way to make a livin' 🎶
It may have finally got me. Body parts feel tired. Tonsils working overtime to conquer whatever lurgy the kid dragged in. Shall drug up now.
No sympathies please. It is what it is. Plus I have hcbs and slaves.
Half of my team at work seem to be dealing with something funky. Starts off in the throat, moves to the nose, then chest. They're not happy.
Offices are the same as childcare centres. Cesspits of communal filth.
headache?
Sort of. Just heavy body feeling.
If you love hot cross buns here's a tip for youse buy extra and freeze them because after Sunday they will be gone.
Don't come at me about raisin bread because they're not the same.
Oh and I have ingredients for choc ripple cake.
Aldi sells them year-round. Seems to be a limited amount of them so they often sell out. Which is good - you can have them every month, but probably not every week.
I did not know that!
There'll be a lot of disappointed anacondas after Sunday. I actually haven't had a single HCB this year yet. I should make the effort to get my hands on some high quality buns before the weekend.
Get on it pronto.
We've still got a couple HCBs from Ferguson Plarre in the freezer from last year!
How is that possible!
Piedmonte's sells not cross buns all year - they just have a diagonal stripe not a cross on the top. Very yum.
Chook has been chattering a mile a minute since he woke up. It’s like he’s trying to tell me something
Is it morning scream time?
The cockatiel used to sing and get very chatty every morning
My endorsement is abnormal. Press 3 for Chinese. Last warning ‼️
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Going into the office in the morning to demo some new tech to one of our executives. Should be done in 30 minutes then I can jump on a tram and head home. 5 meetings over 2 days until the long weekend and I still have no idea where I'll go. Leaving it so late is likely going to limit my options somewhat.
Why am I procrastinating going to sleep? Sleep is great. Ok bye bye.
Feeling very meh and not really wanting to make dinner. I might just pick on some snacks and have an early night.
Same I'm getting fish n chips and going to bed I think
good night 🤗
I wrapped up a little doggy bag for my kid last night. This morning when she opened it she really appreciated the 5 chips, hot dog and 2 hot dog skins I left her. 😂
I can't get my photo to work. Which might be to do with the buy-one-get-one-free cocktails. But please know I have a spectacular view tonight.
Crazy how my local pharmacy will charge $90 for a product I need, but Amcal only charges RRP ,which is $50, for the same thing.
More of a hike, but still cheaper to do the PT trek across town than to walk 10mins down the road. Make it make sense ugh
The Amcal near me on Lygon st is really good. Still at least 30 minutes on PT from where you are
Ah yep, I have to go to the one in Prahan. I always treat myself at Flinders buying a coffee hehe
I'm going to Daiso. Anyone want anything?
Origami paper, more mini cutters, and any Hello Kitty lollies thanks.
Some really beautiful wrapping paper - about 70 cm by 120 cm. Not fussed about the exact design. In blue tones if possible.
I'm back and missed your lists. Next time.
The kids are addicted to those little lego sets. They must have about 10 each of them by now.
God I hate Charity Muggers. Get out of my way you scam artists!
There's some near the Dangerfield on Sydney Road, for MSF. If I wasn't broke I would donate, but not through chuggers; I'd just call them instead lol!
If I was to watch a scary movie like a shit my pants kind what should I watch? I want one that I don't need to think too hard about the storyline and doesn't involve sci-fi.
Sinister is great. Ethan Hawke discovers snuff films in depicting gruesome murders in the new family home.
Talk to Me is really great recent release. Group of friends discover how to conjure spirits with an embalmed hand.
Barbarian is also fantastic. Girl stays in air BnB and discovers a hidden door in basement leading to a labyrinth tunnel of horror.
The Platform (2019) spanish film.
It is sci-fi but not aliens, time travel etc. It's basically the human condition gone wrong (or right).
Scared the shit outta me.
Get Out is great, and Hereditary (but that has gory supernatural stuff)
The Descent (2005)
Signs (2002) (not sci fi, if you take the demon theory to be true lol)
The Ritual (2017)
Hereditary (2018)
The Wailing (2016)
It Follows (2014)
The Autopsy Of Jane Doe (2016)
Train to Busan (2016)As a zombie film buff, train to Busan is one of the best imo. I'm due for a rewatch
by sci-fi do you mean computers/technology/spaceships or are you including anything supernatural?
I walked out of the cinema within 10 minutes of the start of The Ring when it came out. I don't generally do scary movies and I was literally the only one in the cinema so I just noped out of there.
Yeah like aliens and shit and time travelling crap. I'm looking for something that will sound cool on the big speakers. I've watched bits of Venom and that was OK only because there was funny bits in it. Looking for something like Amityville horror or Misery but like this century.
Hard Candy and Mysterious Skin are pretty dark/raw but I don't know if they're quite horror.
Today my sense of taste and smell has decided to vanish, which is odd. I thought now would've actually been when I start getting better, but I guess not.
Auspost still don't know what they did with my delivery
My feet are cold no matter how many socks I put on and everything else is hot
Aghhh
Who was it recommended Vampire Survivor the other week? This game is destroying my wrists!
Considering I can't make up my mind on where I'd like to go this weekend, I think I might just save my money and sleep at home. Maybe just do a day trip or two. Maybe I should actually try going somewhere in the city considering I live here, try a pub or something. A few hundred a night minimum to stay somewhere on Easter weekend for a trip I tried to talk myself into isn't sounding very smart to me right now, but I'll still make sure I get to do some driving.
anyone got a recommendation for a good, force free/positive reinforcement dog trainer or behaviourist? Colleague just got a rescue dog, and the woman I recommended has apparently retired.
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Bleah still not enough sleep my eyeballs hurt. No coffee today though. 3 days in a row would fuck with me. Have chocolate on hand instead...
After today I think everyone has checked out before easter. I'm certainly running from the rest of the week.
Which brings us to a rave choon..
I've just recovered from my bad back and before that depression.
I feel so motivated to do everything :)
My landlord usually does the garden. He went away and it became a jungle.
I spent about 8 hours between yesterday and today cleaning it up.
I fucking hate weeds.
old computer is gone, it's such a relief. Back pain is better, depression is so so, ( and need to check my neg thinking ) but I'm feeling good :)
got so much to do and organise , starting with looking thru a big pile of to do notes
I'm still waiting for pakige. It spent about a week holidaying in Florida, but is now reportedly through customs and somewhere in Melbourne. Finger's crossed it makes its way to me before Easter.
Rain. ☔😊
I was right about this week dragging, my god!
Yep, same. In office tomorrow, which is nice cause the day goes by quicker slightly.
destruction of old computer has commenced
nearly done
poor thing has so many keys that don't work and a very very puffy battery , it over heats like crazy too
BR0SH