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I probably just experienced the worst week in a long while...
My insomnia is getting bad enough that my sleep meds don't work, I had a massive panic attack in the middle of a train station (couldn't breathe properly and move and stuff) and just sobbed on the floor for 10 minutes without anyone giving a shit about me and me continuing to cry for 3 hours after coning home.
Then I found out that we're being kicked out of our home soon and then I had a reeeaallyyy rough meeting with my boss which led me to cry for another 15 minutes at work (I was alone in the office at that point since I had so much work that I had to do ~10h of overtime despite being employed full time already).
Then when the week was finally over and I thought that it can't get any worse, my dad called me and told me that one of our cats died...
And finally, the only thing I was looking forward to all week, an online event in a game. I wasn't able to join because fuck if I know.
Life just hated me for 7 days in a row but I'm still standing. Probably because I did the best decision ever and took an emotional support plushie with me to work.
that's rough, I'm sorry that the universe seems to conspire against you, but you can't always have bad things happen, eventually something good had to happen, and you seem about due for it.
I sure hope so, I've been going through a rough patch for quite a few weeks now...
But I'll take the best of it. HRT might have made me into even more of a crybaby but the fact that I'm managing even now proves that I have become a lot stronger with it