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The New York Times source code leaked by a 4chan user
  • I have not read the news in a really long time just cause paywalls are annoying as frick.

  • Realizations about my transition and just feeling hopeless
  • Ive been on hrt for nearly 3 years now

  • Realizations about my transition and just feeling hopeless

    I think part of my hopelessness is that I am realizing hrt has not done anything to my face, I figured this out since I am still pretty recognizable. the only thing hrt has done for me is give me boobs, which usually results in hey dead name, you should loose some weight when i am recognized in public. I just feel hopeless and I want this nightmare to end.

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    Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.
  • No your not coming across as harassing sorry, I was meaning that I haven't been gendered as a women by random people in public I interact with

  • Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.
  • I've never been told this by a random person in public

  • Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.
  • I've seen you, you have had much better results than I have had, I might have bad genetics and just look ugly. This isn't my fault but the reality I live in

  • Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.
  • Expect for me and other genetically cursed trans women. It sucks fr

  • Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.
  • It's just hard knowing that you will always be neglected, everyone you have a crush on you won't ever date, your always the one people go to but no one is attracted too. You are just reminded of it and it's sad.

  • Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.
  • My issue honestly is, I just hate how nothing I was hoping for with HRT was happened, I don't look like any girl I've ever seen. I just feel awful and I'm treated by the public as such

  • Will I always look this bad, started HRT in January 2022

    started HRT in January of 2022, is it safe to say all major changes are done, and I'll always kinda look ugly and there is nothing HRT can do.

    Also sorry I made a similar post where I had the years wrong I think.

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    Should I give up HRT to save money since it doesn't work for me and is having no real impact.

    https://imgur.com/a/6JkRV6X

    I've been on HRT for 3 years, and I really have lost all hope that I will ever look like a girl or be gendered correctly or even just be treated with dignity. I'm really ugly and honestly I can tell, people lie and say well it's your personality that matters. It's really not that hard to see, and I am wondering if there is a point to spending 120 dollars a month, just for peace of mind.

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    Elon Musk says it's his turn to have the remote
  • Let me guess, the streaming services on it will be like DailyWire+, PragerU. What else

  • ByteDance won't sell TikTok, would rather pull it from the US
  • I think this is a good move honestly, they want it to be an algo similar to meta which you know is terrible, meta is like mostly dudes saying gen Z men are AWAKE and hate LGBT people and tate clips. They seem to have much less success in the algorithm on tiktok

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • So update, it really didn't. I feel kinda insecure over that.

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • it's not that anyone cares about me that much, but rather that no one should be forced to experience that. 911 operators have training in dealing with death.

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • Likely a heart monitor plugged into a python script would work. Than have some basic tts read "Hello, this an automated voice message, Skylar is now deceased, heart rate was recorded flat at {{time}} the location is {{location}}" ideally I'm gonna pick a parking garage which isn't active the day I'm planning on ending it.

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • Generally my idea would be to take the pills than shoot myself afterwards, mainly the goal would be making me a hard case for paramedics, unable to figure out what to treat first.

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • When I was being abused by my dad, adults told me hey you'll be 18 one day. I'm an adult now, and fuck things actually got worse

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • My plan is gonna take a while but I ever the intent is still there

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • They deal with death everyday, it comes with the job. And also for the cops are fuck heads that harass black people and ruin people lives, they deserve to see a dead fucking body

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • I have nothing, no one will make me feel warm and safe and help me. That's the truth. I'm alone.

  • I plan on blowing my brains out soon.
  • Blaming HRT on someone being suicidal isn't science, that's not even fucking proven. Jesus Christ. Just cause it didn't help me doesn't mean it didn't help countless others fuck

  • I hate myself and I'll never have anything

    Today I was scrolling social media and saw a trans gal who used to weigh 280 but now weighs 175 it reminds me that I'm 200 and raising (I don't have a scale currently) my HRT hasn't been working properly so I know that fat is going to masculine areas. Every time I inject I'm reminded what I'm doing is useless and my body will just raise my T or whatever the hell it's doing. I likely am just resistant to estrogen but I'll never know since I can't afford an endocrine doctor (maybe I should be on hrt if I can't afford that I don't whatever the fuck liberals (non leftist) say) I don't really have a community anymore, I'm set to have to move back to my hometown and I have nothing there. I just feel like my life never was worth living to start with but I feel like I've just lost interest in waiting and trying. 2 years ago I started HRT and my E levels are so off and on, it's never consistently working. I just feel like there isn't really any reason I want to be alive.

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    Why am I so ugly and can't stop binge eating.

    I'm so ugly and It keeps getting worse since I binge eat, I just fucking hate myself. I keep eating and I know it's actively making me look more masculine. And feel worse.

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    Does anyone else have a personality type that's just incompatible with everyone

    I feel like everyone eventually gets annoyed with me, and I just always end up alone. I loose all my friends, and Ive never really had a healthy loving partnership. I just feel hopeless

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    I keep injecting in the wrong spot and I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

    I keep injecting into the wrong spot. Usually how I know is it feels harder to push the plunger down on the syringe. And I bleed a little upon removal. How I find the spot is I feel different spots on my leg to see if it flexs, I find the spot and mark it. Disinfect it and inject. Usually turns out fine but these past two times I've been bleeding and harder to press down the syringe (as stated) and I don't know what to do.

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    Remove image from cache

    Hey was wondering if you would be able to purge an image I posted from the cache. I deleted the post but its still cached as an image object and displayed on other instances

    https://pricefield.org/pictrs/image/bb92d53c-0cd2-4d5b-91c7-9c0a18183de1.webp

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    I feel like every photo of me is fake and I'm really awful looking when people see me in IRL

    https://imgur.com/a/gd8lhZo

    The first photo is what I think is closest to how people realistically see me as. I just feel like socially transitioning was a mistake, and maybe hrt can't help me. Keep in mind at the point that photo was taken I was a year and many months in.

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    Please keep this post in mind. Warning active CP attack

    https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/2345596

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    How do you pick shades of makeup?

    I live in the south so I am a bit nervous to ask for makeup help at a store here in boymode, but I do need to pick my shades correctly. Is there any phone apps to help with this?

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    When should I commit on projects?

    I am currently working on a small project, and I am working on getting it functional, but I question when exactly should I make commits. I usually just do it when I am done with working on it, but I know in practical projects often times commits are for one specific thing but given the project does not even work yet what exactly do I do.

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    Why do apps build in Flutter lag horribly on my Pixel 6?

    I have been dealing with stuttering apps whenever the app is built using flutter, I can't really explain this given no one else seems to have this issue. Is it that the pixel 6 is weak sauce, graphineOS or something else?

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    Is there anyway around this, or do I just need to remove this mastodon SDK and find another

    Error [ERR_REQUIRE_ESM]: require() of ES Module /home/sky/Documents/hourlypets/node_modules/tsl-mastodon-api/lib/index.js from /home/sky/Documents/hourlypets/src/mastodon.ts not supported. Instead change the require of index.js in /home/sky/Documents/hourlypets/src/mastodon.ts to a dynamic import() which is available in all CommonJS modules. I am a bit confused, I did attempt to try to change from CommonJS to something else it broke my other modules I am using.

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    Looking for leftist leaning unbias non copro world news with an RSS feed, does that exist?

    I'm looking for a non copro news feed to throw into my news feed. I really hate how all my news is major corpo sources that always side with cops and corpos.

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    What exactly happens during an FFS consolation

    I know I am likely decades away from having proper health insurance and proper cash flow to even consider getting FFS and likely will never happen, but I am still curious what exactly and how do you really figure out what you need exactly and how it will look once fully healed.

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    Why is CalyxOS consider more private than Graphine, but Graphine is more secure?

    I read a post here a while back claiming that graphine is less private but somehow more secure. Of course the only person I have to ask is the graphine Matrix who claims are the opposite of this. Generally my main concern about Calyx is it's Fake google play thing. Apparently this is less private than graphineOS's sandboxed google play since it is still connecting to Google, and is just as privileged as Google play usually is.

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    How exactly should I structure by NodeJS typescript project

    I am currently working on a silly little project that will post pet's up for adoption every hour to mastodon. I am struggling with how I should structure the project.

    Should I put every single step in it's own typescript module, like the main file calls the petgrabber function in petgrabber.ts after 1hr, than petgrabber calls the mastodon function in the mastodon.ts file, or should I just do a single file, or is there a way I am not thinking of. My biggest thing is them being interdependent on each other feels like it defeats the purpose of having them in their own file.

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    Trans period symptoms?

    I have been getting this sickness roughly around the 20th of each month, and I am starting to wonder is this a period? I usually get nausea and a headache, and I feel like I might be a bit moodier, but this could also be a result of me being sick.

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    Is anyone else having issues to replying or editing post on communities hosted on lemmy.world

    I have been having a ton of issues editing or replying to post. I am completely unable to do it and was wondering if they are the issue or if we are.

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