How do you work with the social life in college and not feel worth less than others?
How do you work with the social life in college and not feel worth less than others?
Hey y'all,
I'm a 19 year old psychology student in college (with the goal of becoming a therapist) and have been diagnosed last summer with autism (low support needs).
I think the fact that so many of my peers go to parties, drink and have fun, while it is too overstimulating for me, feels really bad. I can't go to a party without earplugs, beer tastes awful to me (and coffee as well - way too intense for my taste), as soon as there's blood in a movie I feel unconformable, and it just feels that everyone is able to do thing easily which for me are a real struggle.
I'm in a relationship, and my gf seems to be able to do all these things easier than me. Asides from the fact that she also has better grades than me, I just feel resentment and sadness that people around me seem to better than me in so many aspects. Of course we should focus on our strengths, and that we shouldn't compare ourselves to others. But in the end I still feel resentment that people around me are just able to do so many more things than me, and that things considered normal in our society are a struggle, if not outright impossible, for autistic people.
So I'd love some input on how y'all cope with the reality of not being able to participate in social life to the same extent as other people.
Thanks!
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Well my human, it sounds like you already know that your resentment and frustration is valid but not productive. There will be things you can’t do and it sucks. You seem to know that you cannot function in the “typical” social events listed above. Have you tried changing your approach so the activities are in an environment that you can control? If you can’t go to parties because they’re overstimulating, host a dinner party or game night with a smaller group of people. I wasn’t big on house parties either, but I was always able to find people willing to spend the afternoon hanging out in a kitchen with me while we were baking. One of my favorite Friday nights in college wasn’t spent at a bar, instead we all went to a climbing gym and then got pancakes at IHOP. Your social isn’t going to mirror those college movies, but that’s ok. You will find people willing to hang out, it’s just going to look a little different. :)
This is some very good advice. My eldest son is on the spectrum (also low needs now, but was moderate for a while), and he has found D&D groups to be just stimulating enough. Just as an example.
Tech can be your friend here. You can search for people with similar interests. For example, here in NL there's an app for people who want to go on a walk (obviously, safety first of course). The point being use tech to help you discover stuff you like then find other people who are into the same thing.
The ability to control the way I interact with a group setting/function is one of the many reasons I love online gaming. I've been a part of some really great communities that regularly hold a variety of online events, and it's such a great way to participate for people on the spectrum. Jump in and out whenever you want, mask/unmask however you want, sit and listen to the group without ever speaking if you want. No one will think twice about it. Plus, you have the added benefit of hanging with nerds from around the world that tend to be interesting people. Can't really recommend it enough.
Thank you! I also already have done steps into this direction - e.g. by hosting a D&D group. I just am not sure how to build up/ extend that... But I'll think about it. Thank you for your thoughts!
Yay I am glad you’ve already started doing some gaming groups. Sounds like you’ve got a good thing going. If you don’t mind more of my suggestions. College was really fun because I used to just be able to walk into the common room and ask “Who wants to do XXXX?” And usually have more than a few takers. The plans don’t have to be elaborate either. Once it was just as simple as, does anyone want to go to the shop that has tin foil over the windows and see what’s inside? Turns out it was a spice shop and they had some interesting dried goods and tea. Just try and focus on things you like doing or think you would like to try. People are pretty amenable to suggestion, so don’t be afraid to put some ideas out there. Also, be sure to join a club or two. My college would give clubs money if they hosted events that were open to the rest of the student body. So more than once I would book a classroom to binge anime on a huge screen and the school paid for all of the snacks. Another club was founded on the principle that it was cheaper to make waffles in the quad on Thursday nights than to go to the local diner. They eventually became one of the largest clubs on campus and started sponsoring raves because they felt like it. College is fun and I am sure you will enjoy.
Thank you for your suggestion! I sincerely appreciate it. It reminds me of how I found my D&D group: I just asked in our group chat if someone wants to participate, a few people replied - and that's how we found each other. I will think on how to build on that experience and to use it for more areas of interest of mine. I sincerely appreciate your suggestion, and I'll keep them in mind!