The last 2 nights I’ve watched a couple of documentary’s on Max Summer of Soul about the 1969 Harlem music festival and How They Got Over about black gospel quartets from the 30s to the60s, I enjoyed both films , but the kicker is when I listened to this song this morning I jumped from the computer, kind of teared up, got through the song and stopped the player. A few hours later I listened to the rest of the compilation great stuff, then put on that 1st song again and started twitching, stopped waited a few seconds started again the same thing happened so, either I need to see a doctor,music gave me a orgasm or I had a come to J. R. "Bob" Dobbs moment, but the music films must have had something to do with it
Hiking in the desert last spring and all the sudden it hit me, I never thought of it before and boom. I considered myself a semi normal guy and never knowingly had any interactions with trans folks until the morning of my outing.
After taking 3 month shots of Lupron for medical reasons for a year and a half, my doctor put me on a 6 month shot, a few weeks later I started having severe anxiety, I worried about everything and everybody, I was tense and emotional, had empathy like I’ve never known, after searching around, I decided I was having female menopause type episodes from having extremely low testosterone. I rode the emotions a few weeks and started feel a little loose physically, and just surfed the waves mentally
While waiting in line to get some direction for my hike I clocked a woman and thought ,Oh she knows what hormones do to emotions wish I could talk to her about it. Of course I didn’t, but I thought about her during the hike. My thinking was, she just said to herself fuck this I’m a girl and did it. I rolled that in my head the rest of the day and pretty much decided that's what I’m going to do. I’m 67, been a happy go luck guy my whole life, I would describe myself as your screwed up relative that never got their shit together but are happy with their life. After I got back home I asked around in the r/ place talked my oncologist into some patches and feel really incredibly grateful to have stumbled into this at the backend of my life.