I keep crying about the twenty years I lost because of my mother
I keep crying about the twenty years I lost because of my mother
She never let me grow because some dumb misdiagnosis and I could have grown like everyone else but I was in an institution that made me stagnate. I wasn't allowed outside. I wasn't allowed to SHOWER until I was 11 because "I don't know better" but I was showering at FOUR before i was misdiagnosed. I'm 26 and living the tween years I never got to experience. I never had family, just bullies and abusers. The institution forced me to be friends with hurtful people and dissolved my boundaries. I never got to grow as a kid and even today I can't even be an adult. Being an adult is a joke because of the MISdiagnosis. Being a kid was a joke because the imaginary disorder made a CHILD be CHILDISH. I want to fix that woman's mistake and die now. That woman should have NEVER had kids and if she really insisted, she should have killed me if she didn't want a "special" kid that I wouldn't have been if she gave me a chance at life.
What on earth did they say you had???
Autism
Sorry, but as someone who's almost certainly autistic, WTF is this about not letting you shower? That's not an issue of diagnosis - whether misidentified or otherwise.
ASD is a social disability, and it's one with a huge array of differences from the norm, both in type and in magnitude.
Your parent infantalized you. That's not because of your neurotype -- whatever it may or may not be -- but because she projected meaning onto the label you were given.
That's fucked up. I'm so sorry you were treated that way.