Have you ever felt a imaginary switch click that changed the trajectory of your life?
It could be over a few months, like a new job where one day you feel like actually going to work thinking, hey I actually like these people and don't mind working here.
Or when your friends have been super busy for months and suddenly you get matched on dating apps, old friends reach out and people want to buy your old junk on Craigslist in a single day.
I probably saved my life with ecstasy because it took one night with it to get me out of my depression. I tried a few times afterwards but it was never as good as the first time so I stopped but my depression never came back, the colour stayed in my life.
I'm not saying drugs are good but at the right time at the right place with the right amount it can help.
I wish it worked for me! I loved psylocybin, but it's more recreational than anything. I've had deep, deep, depression for decades and absolutely nothing, no medication, no talking, nothing helps.
I don't know the science behind it, I just know that I felt like I had nothing to lose. I'll always be grateful for the excellent tripsitter I had. He took really good care of me and I owe it to him at least as much as to the drug.