It's surreal thinking about cousins being friends. I see my cousins maybe at Christmas and then at the occasional funeral or wedding. It sounds nice though.
I wish we were closer, but I'm an only child and they are the eldest of 3 siblings. So they're close to each other, tho the middle one just moved interstate. We're the kids of 2 of 4 siblings as well, so Sunday lunch at nanandopas has always had aunts, uncle, and a subset of cousins.
I do see them individually, as mates, occasionally. This is one of those occasions.
It's always annoying whenever you tell people that and they're always like "don't think like that!". But when you have so many interviews and get nothing... you can't help but think that.
It's fucking demeaning when people tell you how to think. Seriously. Intrusive thoughts are very hard to deal with without being condescended to by people close to us.