something ive been wanting to address over the last months

ive lost my faith, alot of my childhood was built on lies, went to church every sunday not for religion but for schooling (me going to church meant i could go to a private religious school), while my dad said he was catholic but cheated, did indecent things, i actually was catholic, although was never baptized, my dad had lied to the church about that too, i am now an adult and with a confusing passed i chose to move from religion. i am now coming to a point in my life where i feel like reconnecting.

where do i start, how can i find a community. even preying feel disingenuous.