So I've noticed a pattern in my life that I was hoping someone could empathize with.
I've been training for over a year for a physical test that I really want to pass.
The other day I tried to do the exercises that I'll have to do in the test and I completed all of them successfully and now I feel that I've lost some of my motivation to get better.
It's as if I was trying to prove that I could do it and I feel that I have, although I really haven't since I haven't taken the test.
I've noticed this before. A couple years ago I tried really hard to get into a prestigious degree in a reputable university through my own merit. I managed to get in and soon after I lost interest and quit.
Has anyone experienced something like this before?
Thank you for your time :)
Ps.: I'm not sure this is related to ADHD, I just figured it might be and the people here might be able to advise me.
I got into and forced my way through a degree in EE just to prove I could as a foreign student working mother. Dropped out after half the time in part due to burnout, in part due to loss of motivation.
Learned a million different things (literally from basket weaving to drone racing) all stored away or suffering from lack of time after figuring out how to do them well. These days I'm between pretty decent and almost hopeless at everything. Want a mediocre wooden bed? A fairly good bathroom with mosaic art? A vegetable garden? A small computer program?
I sometimes wonder what this ADHD thing is good for, for sure it must have some purpose? It's like I'm waiting for the big conclusion of something that connects all the things I have been picking up throughout the years.
You will be the one to write the small computer program which allows drones carrying hand woven baskets to collect vegetables from the vegetable garden while you are walking between your mediocre bed to your fairly good mosaic art laden bathroom and life will be good.