smish It's hard, and there's a tendency to focus on the falls as the failure. The falls aren't the failure. The giving up on attempts to ride the horse is the failure.
Those nitotine lozenges work pretty well for cravings. Jump back on the wagon. You can do it. I did and I was going through about 5 bottles of vodka a week in my last bender. I know it's not that simple but hit me up if you want a sober buddy, I'm serious. I'm not suggesting for a second I think you're an alcoholic or anything less than powerful but alcohol ends up a part of many facets of life and creeps. Having some sober people around helps.
I take a non habit forming sleep tablet, which is actually an anti-anxiety / anti-d, but in lower doses just helps getting to sleep and getting back to sleep when I wake up. I tried not using a couple of nights and went back to my normal less then average sleep pattern for what that is worth.