id just generally been depressed most of my teens, eventually I had a breakdown when I was 18 and ordered hrt online like a few weeks after i was like 'ok yeah I'm trans' shit was stressful
im very glad I spent way too much time on 4chan growing up otherwise i would've waited years to get on hrt. e.g. r/transgenderuk was run by cis people at the time and actively hate mongered against diy hrt, a lot of the people on reddit were all like 'TRUST YOUR DOCTOR'. mind you this was all like 5 or 6 years ago