🤔 you're telling me a man who likes having sex with women is finding himself sexually attracted to a young woman that's isn't his direct relative? Yeah that's weird. /s
Yeah you're going to have to control yourself, maybe dive deeper into why you're having these urges/fantasies. If you don't like her as a person, your desire to forcefully have sex/rape her could be a manifestation of your desire to have control over her. Or maybe you don't have much control over your life/situation right now, and you see her as a way to exert control over something?
There are many possibilities. You might also just be having idle thoughts. At the end of the day, there is no thought police, only your words and actions are observable by those around you.
Tha la for the reply. I do like her. We a sharing laughs and fool around. (scaring and prank each other).
I am controlling myself as much as I can. Sometimes, when I got lost in my thoughts and doing porn in my mind with her, I simply end it thinking that doing so would just brake her and she would lose her bratty attitude that I like.
As you said there could be many possible reasons. But I am sure that controlling is not in them.
You could try framing her as a little sister in your mind. That familial connection/feeling can be enough for some (like me) to lose all sexual interest in someone.
Are you good with your wife? You may want to figure out the right way to talk to her about these feeling. Either way you might also want to talk about this with your therapist. You have one, right? Everyone should.